late at night i become selfish

theres nothing worse than being me right now. awake

and upset

somewhat lonely

but its almost 3am and this is to be expected

"people are asleep right now lisa"

no one cares

and even if they do, they wont show it till morning

and by morning it will be to late

maybe even, less appreciated

all i want is the perfect guy with the same sleeping patterns as me

the guy who stays up with me

who loves me

...and is it crazy that this is all making me tear up (she says with tears rolling down her cheeks)

-i cry easily, things make me sad, dont judge me-

i just want people to be there always

whenever i need them

i want them to be nice

and love me

i want to go to sleep

and i cant.

so i'll send him another sms

and i'll wipe my tears

and i'll tell myself that its okay to be selfish...

its okay to want silly things and be upset

its okay to be hungry

but too lazy to go to the fridge

and lastly, its okay to be sad