mind your step

it shocks me everytime

and makes me wonder what to say

it makes me smile

and blush

and hope that people dont judge me

it's weird

and sometimes i don't believe it

sometimes things are different in my head

The realisation that people actually read this blog

Hi Akua and Nick and Tom

the words i write are usually just for andea and cheyenne

and sometimes just for me*

but you can read them too i guess :)

love.

today felt like holiday

i stayed up till the early hours

then slept till late

 and had nicknacks for breakfast

i watched glee

alot of glee

and danced and sang and perved over afew of the characters

i tweeted

and drank tea

and got caught up and bearly thought about things that usually bother me

i took a shower and washed my hair with my marshmallow smelling shampoo

and watched my dog stare curiously in the mirror

i promised that tomorrow will be exactly the same as today

but better

and reminded myself that i will see friends this weekend

and everything will be lovely

#nowplaying #onrepeat : Animal and When i get you alone

the Glee rendition ofcourse

xoxo

andrea said something

something along the lines of....

"i don't have time for girls who think having a guy will make them happy

kinda like you sometimes"

and i haven't forgotten about it

and i refuse to believe its true

and i sit here wanting to type my third? blog post about #myGuy

and...the question is, should i?

how to have a crush on someone

i like how he sent me a pointless message "accidentally" and which was meant for someone else

i like how he apologised and then asked me how i was

i like how we spoke for hours

and went to go shower at the same time

and then spoke again afterwards

i like how he tells me stupid silly things

like that he likes watching animal planet and to cook in his spare time

i like that we wished together at 11:11

and that we updated our status about each other

and that he uses words i dont know and then says "i know you're about to google it"

....how he keeps silly secretes

i like how i cant stop thinking about what it would be like to kiss him.

x

feels like i have nothing

i used to be really happy

i was fixing things

but then i got lazy and caught up in old memories

and ruined all my progress

and  really dont know what i need anymore

i dont.

i dyed my hair about a week ago

and today was the first day, after a while

 where i looked in the mirror and recognised myself

today i like it

though i cant wait to change it

i finally uploaded the photo's taken on my birthday

im so inlove with them :)

and thank you for the stockings you bought me andrea**

now we just need an occasion to wear them

i am excited to be on holiday

and for things to get better

to relax and watch series

and see friends

i love my friends

even the ones i have at varsity

(though dont get me wrong, i do still have fans....and shame, they're sweet

and no, im still not used to them)

maybe im just a little distressed about this adjustment i have to make

maybe im lazy

or lonely

maybe im trying to hard....

im not sure what i want



look how lovely her short hair looks andrea*



i have a purpose

and yet still feel purposeless

(euw, the word "purpose" is just disgusting)

maybe i just want to have fun

go out and meet people

or just have fun with people i know

or both

....goodness and talking about "fun"

rebecca black is....

no i will not hate on her on my blog

but F*CK

her song "friday" is something demented

yes

and i'd tell you to listen to it but

F*CK

it might ruin your life

you wont be the same again

you wont enjoy the phrase ... no im not going to say it

SHE RUINED THE WORD FRIDAY!

She did!! ...

kay now im just freaking out all over again

**deep breaths

i ended up making a CD for andrea

i needed to listen to something

and i've been playing it over and over

and i cant wait to play it in her kitchen

and to drink tea

hmmmm tea

xoxo