and if you know me when it comes to blogging, then you should know i procrastinate to the max
this time a took it a step further and typed
"how to better yourself"
bet you didn't take me seriously when i said i like to procrastinate, until now
and this mini quiz came up
which i took of corse
and Oh My Fuck
i know it's late
and that i should make tea and probs go pack the dishwasher
but the results are so close to accurate
......i really should go to bed
anyway, take a look:
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
and maybe im crazy to be blogging about this
maybe this is another form of procrastination
but all i can say, is that if you didn't know me
you now have a basic understanding
and yes there's so much more to me
actually i dont have a but
and while im telling people how they should feel about me
i might as well add that i hate judgemental people
and people who are mean and make fun of others for a laugh
Having you as a friend has added so much value to my life: from the first time I spoke to you- (I was in desperate need of a photo coping card in grade 9- Ms Simpson’s class.) You were the only one who owned one AND with R10 credit on- freak! Haha. I told you that you were my guardian angel, you just laughed. I remember when my nail broke you wiped out a fully equipped ‘tool box/ pencil case’ to pass me a nail file. When my Matric ball dress fell apart you gave me a pin and everything was just fine! How do I say Thank You- it’s just two small words with so much meaning.
Having you as a friend meant 2 hour phone calls, laughing till I cry and forgetting to say goodbye. Having you as a friend meant listening to boys stories, spending lunch time giving you advice and you agree to take it. When Mondays come, you had done the exact opposite! Having you as a friend meant concentrating really hard to remember all the boys names lol J “Ammy, you know (insert name) from (insert place), his really funny and cute, I like him! My response: “Ah Lisa but his like ancient old and that like illegal!” Haha. I guess having you as a friend meant that I had to be the “Aunty” in the relationship- well, not all the time.
Having you as a friend meant living life to the fullest, being daring and enjoying every moment of it! Even though you might have done a few silly things, you were incredibly bright and you were my special friend. So from the first photo coping card to the first Heineken you bought me, I knew that we would have a great friendship!
Keeping all this in mind, it makes saying goodbye (at the end of matric) a little easier because I know that a HUGE part of you will always be with me!"
we aren't friends anymore
and i remember clearly how she ended our friendship
her stupid reasons
i cant even be heartbroken about it
if someone doesn't want to be in my life thats their issue
and she still kinda keeps in touch
mostly bc i think she feels bad, and misses me
im not even sure why she sent me this email
or what she expects me to say
maybe she knows she made a mistake and wants me to feel sorry for her