feels like i have nothing

i used to be really happy

i was fixing things

but then i got lazy and caught up in old memories

and ruined all my progress

and  really dont know what i need anymore

i dont.

i dyed my hair about a week ago

and today was the first day, after a while

 where i looked in the mirror and recognised myself

today i like it

though i cant wait to change it

i finally uploaded the photo's taken on my birthday

im so inlove with them :)

and thank you for the stockings you bought me andrea**

now we just need an occasion to wear them

i am excited to be on holiday

and for things to get better

to relax and watch series

and see friends

i love my friends

even the ones i have at varsity

(though dont get me wrong, i do still have fans....and shame, they're sweet

and no, im still not used to them)

maybe im just a little distressed about this adjustment i have to make

maybe im lazy

or lonely

maybe im trying to hard....

im not sure what i want



look how lovely her short hair looks andrea*



i have a purpose

and yet still feel purposeless

(euw, the word "purpose" is just disgusting)

maybe i just want to have fun

go out and meet people

or just have fun with people i know

or both

....goodness and talking about "fun"

rebecca black is....

no i will not hate on her on my blog

but F*CK

her song "friday" is something demented

yes

and i'd tell you to listen to it but

F*CK

it might ruin your life

you wont be the same again

you wont enjoy the phrase ... no im not going to say it

SHE RUINED THE WORD FRIDAY!

She did!! ...

kay now im just freaking out all over again

**deep breaths

i ended up making a CD for andrea

i needed to listen to something

and i've been playing it over and over

and i cant wait to play it in her kitchen

and to drink tea

hmmmm tea

xoxo